Its not his fault.....

You know, I/we have to be content & thankful for whatever Allah decrees, right..........so when i'm havin a moment within myself, maybe feelin a lil jealous, slightly insecure, whatever; i try to remind myself of this perfect deen of al-islam and it always helps. So lastnight, while I lay in bed awake, couldn't fall asleep quite yet, i looked over at the husband who was sleeping so peacefully; he kinda reminded me of a baby, u know how the preciousness of children is hightened for some reason while they're sleeping, but as soon as they wake up all their other "kiddy" qualities resurface, lol,..........sorry got off topic a lil, and so as i lay there gazing at him a profound but not so profound thought came to me "i cant be upset with you, its not your fault, after all this is how your Lord created you"..............and even tho i wasn't in any particular mood at that time, the thought just made me feel so much better about myself for some reason.....it was so weird because, i've known for a long time now about how Allah created men and about how He left no greater fitnah for the men than woman, etc.........but still and all my thoughts just lifted me up so much. For a long time I often wondered why it is that even tho i gave my marriage 100% in every aspect; it still wasn't good enough. Now i don't think along those lines as much only occasionally when the shaytan catches me in a weak moment but other than that Allah has trully increased my understanding of polygyny, men, woman, marriage and so much more, masha'Allah. And i'm just so thankful for that...........

Note to self.

Don't rely on others to make you happy, be your own source of happiness and that way you only have yourself to blame when you've fallen short.

Oooopppps.

Ok, so i forgot about what I decided to do on my blog from now on. But since i've remembered, im carrying on. Maybe if i was slightly more interesting, i wouldn't forget that i actually have a blog :-/ but yeah, im thankful for............the fact that today is thursday, which means that tomorrow will be Friday. Insha'Allah I'll make it to see Fri and if i do i plan on going to CVS, they're having a sale on some revlon, loreal, and some other cosmetics. I'm itching to try out some foundation too.

Not a blogger

I am not a boring person but for some reason i cant seem to get a post in to save my life, lol. I have so much on my mind all the time, so much going on in my life but i never seem to blog about it????maybe its bcuz i get more outta reading others' thoughts rather than rambling on about my own. I do kno that i don't like to write about negative thoughts bcuz its kinda like complaining and thats one of my goals, to complain less and to be thankful more. ok so i just got an idea; everyday, no every couple of days, i'll blog about something im thankful for, it may be one thing or it may be more than one, but at least one thing. Hopefully i'll get around to doing it daily :-) so starting today. hhhhhmmmmmmm.......... i am thankful for the laptop my husband has given me, as i am using it right now to type. I must say that without my laptop, i'd still be blessed but lost at the same time, not as lost as i'd be without other things and people, but yea it'd be a huge loss, for me. i love my comp. ok so i feel like i have a ton of thing to write about now, but im saving the rest for later, insha'Allah.

what shall i get????

alhumdullilah, masha'Allah, I have a cowife now. I have not met her in person just yet but we do exchange brief emails and chat online from time to time. My husband will be leaving soon for about a week 1/2 to visit insha'Allah. i'm not sure if she'll beable to fly bac with him as there is plenty of paper work to sort out, may Allah make it easy on them, aameen. I am kinda anxious and extremely nervous for when we do meet. even though i've been in polygny before, i still don't know what to expect, i just pray to Allah that everything is what it seems to be. just like everything in life, i have to put my trust in Allah pray for the best, right.

But aside from that, i wanted to pick up something for her (co-wifey), for husband to take to her when he leaves???? i do kno that she likes makeup just as i do, so I was thinkin about getting her some???? Still not sure where from though??? i wanna get her something that isn't easily accessible in her country, which is Morocco. i don't want to ask becuz i want it to be a surprise. Maybe i'll just email her and ask if there are any products shes been wanting to try from here that she can't get there and see what she says????? but besides make-up, i wanna get her a really good book regarding women and the huge role we play in Islam. there are a few titles i have in mind, will think about that too. anywho, we'll see what I come up with?????

Urban Decay, my new best friend :-D

Ok, so I've gone from the girl who owned quite few lipglosses and maybe two tubes of mascara, to the girl who has 4 Urban Decay eyeshadow palettes, multiple make-up brushes and other stuff. I think my husband thinks I'm crazy because for the last month I've purchased more makeup than I have in my 25 years of living. And I'm finding out that makeup can be expensive, but thats why you save and buy a little at a time. Anyways, my next fix is to purchase something from MACs hello kitty collection. I've been on you tube and pretty much seen all the products from the collection and heard plenty of thoughts about it. But, I refuse to go broke buying cosmetics, so I think I'm just gonna pick up a lipstick & gloss. I've been wanting to try out a foundation, too; but can't figure out how to choose one. I'm contemplating MakeupForever's Face&Body foundation or MAC's Face&body, I heard they're both really good and provide light coverage, which is exactly what I am lookin for. And of course I'd like to purchase a brush or two, esp MAC's 187 and a couple others. So yeah, if you have any suggestions on light coverage foundations (good ones), let me know. Thanx.

I am so thankful!!!!

Alhumdullilah, I have so much to be thankful for. I have been feeling much less worried and anxious lately, YAY. I've been putting more focus on other things important to me and I have been trying to concentrate on the positive side of everything. I hate when I complain and have made it a priority of mines to focus on all that Allah has blessed me with whenever i feel the need to complain. So insha'Allah with much dua and remembrance of Allah, I will be fine :-) Now I kno some days will be better than others and I am cool with that because my hardships and overcoming them has help shape the person I am today, YAY, again. :)