I'm back.....for now anyway......

As-salaamu Alaykum. So much to say, so little time, masha-Allah. I've been busy as usual and for a while the server was giving me problems when trying to sign in and as the inconsistent blogger that I am that just made matters worst ;) But alhumdullilah, the boys are all doing well, masha-Allah.

I've been doing okay, too. I haven't really been socializing much, though. It seems as the days go on I become more and more secluded from the outside world. My trust is diminishing and at times I feel bad because I would rather stay home with my family than go to the pamper parties, or the masjid for class, or a wahlimah's, etc. Not because I don't like those type of things, I'm just really hesitant about being around other sisters even if they're Muslim. I used to love to meet new Muslim sisters and I still do just not as much. I ask Allah to soften my heart and to forgive me for not being trusting of my fellow Muslim sisters and to increase the sisterhood, AAMEEN. None of us are perfect and we all have issues and it's up to us to help each other achieve success in this life as well as the next. May Allah make us successful, AAMEEN.

On a higher note I've been enjoying my busy days in the house with my boys, there's not an uneventful moment, ever. Or at least that's what it seems like. Even at night when all is resting, just thinking about them makes me tired.

Smooches,
MuslimMommie

P.S. I miss you all, I really do. Ok, I'll admit, I can be a liitle lazy, but I'm working on it. Once again forgive me for leaving without notice. I'll try my best to stay afloat.

Abu Hurayrah (radiallahu 'anhu)narrated the Prophet (sallallaahu ’alayhi wa sallam) said ...........and piety is right here – and he pointed to his chest three times. It is enough evil for a person to hold his brother Muslim in contempt. The whole of a Muslim for another Muslim is sacred; his blood, his property and his honour.” (Muslim #2564)

For right now anyway, alhumdullilah

Your Depression Level: 16%

You aren't depressed, and you probably already knew that. Like everyone else, you have ups and downs. But unlike most people, you've mastered keeping your mood stable.

Are You Depressed?

May Allah continue to strengthen me in taqwaa, iman, and subr with ease, AAMEEN.

Quick Stop

As- salaamu Alaykum, sweeties. Alhumdullilah the boys and I are well. I've been checking in and commenting when the time permits. I love you all, my sisters (and brothers) in Islam whoever you are. Keep your heads' up and don't let the dunyah get the best of you, enjoy it as much as possible and strive for the best in this life as well as the hereafter. Please keep me in your duas and I of course will keep you all in mines insha-Allah. Be back soon insha-Allah, ma salaama.

He's Back

Al humdullilah, my husband is back and safe. I am so happy he is back because I missed him tremendously. I was going through it a little bit, though. I'm thankful that he's back but I've been feeling slightly deprived. I sometimes feel like my husband doesn't give me enough attention. He does pay some attention to me, but because he spends a significant amount of his time away from us I feel like he should make an extra effort to make me as well as the boys feel loved and missed and wanted. I do understand that he has other obligations some of which has to do with the well being of the boys and I and others that don't and so this may cause him to be tired and exausted at times. Which I understand happens; at the same time this is what comes with providing and maintaining a family or in his case families. Which he does well, masha-Allah. Nevertheless I expect a little something extra at the least when it comes to us. Maybe I'm asking for too much but this is the way I feel. Our time together is limited; when he's not here no one else is here to take his place. We just have to be patient until it is our turn again.

I tried explaining to him how I feel without turning it into an argument because that is what I wanted to avoid. So I calmly began telling him how I felt. Alhumdullilah it didn't turn into an argument, but I'm not sure if he quite got what I was trying to express through all the tears. I tried so hard not to cry but I couldn't help it. Alot of times I'll just keep my feelings to myself to avoid fitnah. And since our time is already limited I didn't want to annnoy him, frustrate him, make him feel bad or make the mood awkward during our time together. All I wanted was to make him aware of how I felt. He didn't say much, just stared and listened; which is good, I guess???

He said he didn't feel well and I was mentally exausted, so we called it a night and to went to bed. While the mood did become slightly awkward neither of us were upset or angry, wal alhumdullilah. So I guess you could say it ended on a good note. Insha-Allah he understood some of if; not all of what I was trying to convey. And honestly I'm not sure if I expect him to understand me completely. After all we play two very different roles. He's the husband and I am the wife.

Random thought of mines : Alhumdullilah, Allah is truly merciful in all that he decrees, I know this for a fact and insha-Allah I will continue to to strive and recognize so as long as I am able. If I can continue to remember this, insha-Allah life in this dunyah won't be as hard to accept.

Keepin' busy

As-salaamu alaykum. How is everyone? Alhumdullilah, the boys and I are fine, just been crazy busy. Insha-Allah my husband will be home in a couple of days, so I've been preparing for his arrival. Can't wait, masha-Allah. I truly miss him and I am becoming more and more anxious as the days go buy. May Allah bless him with a safe, successful trip home, AAMEEN. While I've been busy, I have not forgotten about my fellow sisters in Islam an have therefore kept you all in my duas and will continue to insha-Allah. Luv u. Insha-Allah, I'll be back soon.


Random ayaat from the Quraan: "And My Mercy embraces all things." (7:156)